Salaamun'alaikum

Just before Eidul Adha, I've decided to clean up my stuff.



So you can see how horrible the state of my cupboard used to look like- the same goes to how terribly worned out and tensed up I am while sorting those items.

Btw, the picture on the left was taken at arnd 12.30nn, Friday. The one on the right was taken at arnd 9.00 am, Saturday. Yep, it took me 2 days, cleaning up, sorting,dusting AND sneezing my brain off. Grr.

But it is STILL not ready yet. Wargh! *faints*

Oh well, at least my stuff didnt spread out from 1 end of the carpet to the other. Instead, only half of the carpet is occupied! SO does that mean I've made an impressive progress?? heE~

Right. Impressive enough. *rolls eyes*

Hey, just imagine- primary 1 stuff to secondary 4, along with my 2 elder sisters'! So you cant blame me, all in all. Muaha!

Heh, principally, hamdan lillah. With patience and perseverance, I managed to do the impossible. Hah!

Ehh..betul lah.. asek bukak almari buku ana ni, rase stress seh..walhal dah bes O level. ^.^

Ok ok. So call me lazy pig. But hey, I DO my chores and all- except for cleaning my cupboard. Cuz I know that requires a LOT of work, as compared to the other -tedious- housework. I've set my priorities, okay. =D

Alright folks. I've got to do a runner..

Hafizah!! Almari buku lom kemas!!!! Pemalas eh!!! -_-"

Okay okay..Ish.

Before I sign off, I would like to wish every Muslim out there a very blessful Eidul Adha!

Remember the sacrifice Prophet Ibrahim and his son, Prophet Ismail made?
May Allah grant us patience likewise to overcome the mihnah faced in this fana' world. Amin.

Salaam Eidul Adha!
Kullu 'am wa antum bi khairin! =))

Salaam.


Hamdan lillah. After such a long time, I get to meet my beloved sisters. =)


I really hoped all of us could get together but somehow being human beings, we may only plan the tiny bits but principally, Allah is the Master Planner.


Jangan sedih eh uhkti Nazirah n Ukhti Ramiza.. Allah sayang antuma sbb tu k. Walau ape2 pun terjadi, ukhuwwah kitorg ttp same-erat- kerana Allah. ^.^

So I went bowling for the second time this year. Heh. I did make some improvements in achieving good scores. Last time I went: 32. Today: 44. Amciamm?? Heh. (k dah.merepek) Thanks to Him, of course.

Marina Square was our destination for today, then Esplanade.

by the way, antum tau kan yg Marina Square tu bukan dekat dengan Marina Bay MRT..? Dia kat City Hall MRT. Ana bilang je..sbb ada kwn ana ni kan..*coughatiqahcough*..kesian jgk tgk anak ni seorg.. heh.

By the way, the reason why I suggested an outing Marina Bay is because there is a tiny, cosy musolla a.k.a surau at the carpark.

Senang kan nak tunaikan kewajipan~nikmat kan tu? Ana sukeeeeee sangat2 Marina Square. Ukhti Atiqah kata kat Parkway Parade pun ada kan..? K set. Insya Allah nak gi sana (kiasu kan? tau....=))

Tapikan... Kita kene ingat2 juga....
Ana fikir-fikir balik kan,

setiap ujian yg diberiNya, mesti ada nikmatnya yg tersirat.
dan setiap nikmat yg diberiNya, mesti ade ujian juga.

Sebab tu lah.. ana ni lalai sangat.. Ya Allah Ya Rahman, Engkau sahajalah yg Maha Arif segala-galanya. Ujian yang datang.. tak pe. Ana cuba senyum.

Senyuman yg paling manis kan kepunyaan orang yg diuji-Nya dan sambil berkata Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raaji'uun..serta mengukirkan senyuman tanda bersabar dan redha..

Ya Rabbi Ya Rahim.. Susah eh nak jadi org yg baik..?

Al-Quran kesayangan ana..di kala ana di MKS, di sekolah, di rumah, dlm bilik kesepian, dlm bas kebosanan...teman sejati ana... Ya Allah, aku tidak mampu menghadapi segalanya... Ya Allah, bantulah hambamu Ya Allah...

Iyyakan na'budu wa Iyyaka nasta'in.... :'(

Salaam.

So many words for the broken heart.
Surrender my heart, body and soul..... to HIM.

Hey, remember the song Show me the meaning of being lonely ? Am listening to it. Okay so the " to HIM " above was added by me. heh. Well, we arent really lonely at all, even when we do feel like it though, right?

Its just that these feelings..are virtual lah. Not real. Just my imagination.. Ok so tht's another song. (eyy, why am I going so musical tonight?) Haha.

(Ish depressing uh lagu backstreetboys ni.erm..)

Well, okay, I admit that at times I do feel lonely and all. But when I think about it, I shouldnt be feeling that way, should I? (ahh k..self-tadzkirah ni..)

Hmm.. Ever received an email about man and a barber who's an atheist? And says that if god exists, then why are there souls still suffering from hunger and pain..? Then the man says that it isnt about god's existence - but the probs lie within these people..who live their lives astray, not wanting to bring themselves to God.

That is so true, dude.

(ahh..now That's the way it is by Nsync and Celine Dion is such an optimistic song. heh.)

Hmm.. Speaking of which.. Even tilawatul Quran brings abt the feeling which tell you- you're not alone at all. Even the salaah- when the blood rushes to your head.. the only position whereby blood reaches to the only veins-vital veins- in order for the human brain to function well. Hmm..Wonders of Allah. Subhanallah..

And then, I recall my The Miracle of Iron speech. Thanks to www.harunyahya.com. Alhamdulillah, Allah made me stumble upon the website. I guess stumbling isnt so bad afterall.
So lesson learnt; in life, falling doesnt mean its the end of the world.its just a process before rising. (okay, thts my own unwitty quote.please dun qoute it. haha! self-tadzkirah ni) ;)

Do you find this post monotonous? My apologies if you do cuz I don't. I'm really going musical tonite uhh~) haha. Hmm..And it has been very very cold lately. I love rain. Rain=Rahmat. Rahmat is from Allah. Conclusion; I love Allah. Whee~

Till then, leil sa'eed. :))

الهجرة رحلة هادينا

Salaam.

Days had passed by. Time flies real fast.تطير الوقت سريعا

But no matter how fast it flies, the MSP presentation is still not over yet. *haha!*

Hmm....

Menyingkap masa lampau ni kan.... Tetibe teringat peristiwa lucu dalam idarah. Ana dgn Farahin jadi kerani/guru kejap. sebab ada call dari teacher Aini psl Busyra. Panik seh masa tu! hish.

Stress

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It was during the June school holidays. We had extra Maths/Geography lessons. And I had some Arabic debate meeting. Later that morning, I was called to the office. Muka binget tau.

Dah habes sume nye kan?? Ape lagi ni?? Busyra ni kan...(fumes all the way through the lessons)

Before knocking on the staff's room's door..

Ape lagi yang tak betul? Ade ape ni.. Ape Mudir nak ni? Alamak.. ade ape ni....ade meeting bahas lagi lepas ni..Ape ni..Farahin plak kat mane skrg? (and grumble grumble all the way..)

Me: Teacher....I.. (tak sempat habis..oops no..*start sentence..)

Teacher: Ah Hafizah! (okay..tchr ALWAYS does that when she wants to see me. cute eh? heh)

Okay. So the conversation went on about the problems faced..Al-Busyra..bla..bla..bla.. You DONT wanna know, I tell ya.

A few moments later, Farahin came knocking on the door. She entered the staff's room.
We did our work, discussed with Teacher and kak Zeenath about Albusyra. And tchr Mazda. Fun discussion.

That day was friday. Then came in Ust Mustoffa and Ust Supendi.
I had to go to Ust Supendi's desk and the computer to and fro, about the Arabic column and bla..bla..bla..

Bnyk salah...Salah grammar.. Ni tak de.. Anaaaaaa jugak yg kene..sedih seh.. sampai Ust Fathurrahman pun tgk2 tmpt ana. Yelah, 'afwan ust, ana tau Arab ana tak bagus..huhu.. :(

Macam-macam ammendments dibuat. Terasa dejected sekejap bila ana retaip pat comp..edit2 benda2.. Tapi ku tahan, Jebat!

Sabar..sabar... semuanya akan selesai jua, insya Allah. Kerana sekolah. Klw utk sekolah, kerana Allah kan?

Itu je uh sumber motivasi/ketenangan yg ana ade... betulnye sesak seh. Mcm nak nangis jugak tau kat depan comp tu.Lagi-lagi bile ade org office ckp cover die patut psl bahas. Remuk skejap hati ini. TAPI Teacher Aini side ana dan Farahin! SAYANG Teacher!!!

Masa tu tgh edit article Hanzalah. Kan sweet kan cerita tu. Mujahid & syahid. Ana pun berbual lah dgn Farahin psl cerita tu. Tup tup teacher turut dengar seh...and what did she say?

"Iye ke? Kesiannye die meninggal.."

Hehe. terkejut seketika.

Masa tu juga ana dan Farahin berbual2 bnyk2 sampai Teacher banyak kali ckp
"Eh cepat buat keje tu..!"

Ana dgn Farahin pun ketawe jek. Tapi buat bodoh jek! jahat tak? tau.... =P

Hamdan Lillah.. Siap jua majalah itu. Dan kini ana gembira dan bersyukur kerana Allah menjadikan segala kesusahan yg ana lalui dulu tu -satu pengajaran & pengalaman nan indah. =D

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By the way to Syafiq, alfu 'afwin sebab muka kau tak de ke ape.. ku dah letak tau..ade 1 ke 2.. Sorry bnyk2. ku tau kau semangat pose bnyk2 utk busyra ni. insya Allah tahun depannye ade k? Ku bilangkan Asilah suruh letak k?

Salaam.

Novel: Ayat-ayat Cinta
Penulis: Habiburrahman El-Shirazy

"DIA terasa begitu dekat, lebih dekat dari urat leher, lebih dekat dari jantung yang berdetak."

"Wa laqad karramnaa banii Adam. Dan telah Kami muliakan anak keturunan Adam!
Jika Tuhan telah memuliakan manusia, kenapa masih ada manusia yang mencaci dan melaknat sesama manusia? Apakah ia merasa lebih tinggi martabatnya daripada Tuhan?"

"Di mana-mana, di seluruh Mesir, jika ada orang bertengkar atau marah, cara melerai dan merendamnya adalah dengan mengajak membaca shalawat.
Justeru, jika ada orang yang sedang marah, lantas kita bilang padanya, La taghdhab! terkadang malah akan membuat ia semakin marah."

Sebuah Novel Pembangun Jiwa.

p/s: buku ni best bangat. Rase mcm nak post je satu buku ni kat blog ana. Tapi tu gila kan namenye..? heh. Antum klw bace, mesti ter'hook' punye. Klw nak bace, insya Allah mane2 library NLB ada. =)

Semoga ada kesan yang baik pada diri ana setelah usai membaca buku ni. Amin, =)

Salaam'alaikum.
Usually, this time of the year, the song I listen most to frequently is Demi Cinta Suci.

Ouh..I've posted an entry about that last year, haven't I?

It seems to me like the same scenario is happening again. History repeats itself? Oh no no no..
I've had enough of these.

Ya Rabbi.. Bantulah aku ya Rahman..

Terase diri ni mcm bodoh gitu.. But the feelings are from Him, right?
And I guess that's where the hard part comes in.
To fight back and stand up for my rights.
I am a Mu'minah who has pride and dignity.
I've got my priorities.
But am I doing the right thing?

Amr ma'ruf dan nahi mungkar..Ana arif semue tu.. Tapi mcm mane nak explain?

A sticky situation, it is.

"apalah erti cinta suci andai janji-janji sering dimungkiri?
apalah erti cinta murni andai kata-kata sering didustai?"

Salaam 'Alaikum!! (whoa. sounds a little too excited,doesnt it?)



A group photo, [ no, we werent promoting SIngapore Post Centre, mind you.] taken after our pre-departure meeting, LAST YEAR.

Yep, this photo will be a year old within a few days. I wonder how my MSP mates managed to put up a sincere smile- with the Larium killing us inside. See my smile? Okay, there wasnt any. But hey, the medication was freaking scary okay. They almost made my parents change their mind about letting me go for the trip. Grr. It was the WORST tablet I have ever swallowed in my life. AND the best part is that I am not even sick or ill but HAD to swallow that minute yet menacing tablet. Yuckk. I will haunt that Larium. Okay okay. Revenge is sweet but Larium is not- its bitter- so I'd better let the pathetic tablet off. Muaha.

Meanwhile, the powerpoint is DONE!! Hamdan Lillah.. Managed to reduce the slides from 50 to 43, if I'm not mistaken. HEhe. Thanks to Mar. AND the scripts are done too! Phew. Thanks FAthin for letting us stay out a lil bit late at your house. But I bore the consequences lah. As usual, Ummi always thinks Im merely playing around, getting home late after my curfew. Whatever. I merely stomped out of bus service 89 seh after ending the call with Ummi.
Alah. Biarlah nak buruk sangka ke ape. Berani kerana benar, takut kerana salah.

Allah knows the best how much (or little!) effort I put into designing the powerpoint.
Orang tak tau tak pe.. Biar Allah je tau.. Moga2 usahaku diberkatiNYa..Amin.

My tutoring job has started. Im teaching my nieces, TWO hyperactive nieces, to be exact, Arabic. And the first lesson was.. tiring. My hyperactive sister too joined in so it was double tiring. Today, I'd have to teach just ONE of the nieces without my sister BUT!
(remember, there is always a 'but') Ummi thought I'd bring her along. Grr.. You know what?
Im reading the book Ayat- ayat Cinta by Habiburrahman El-Shirazy and the protoganist says Telingaku sangat alergi pada caci-maki, apalagi umpatan yang hina. So i think id better not swear. I would gladly like to have that kind of allergy too! Hmm. Entahlah.

Im gaining weight, you know. But I dont suppose weighing machines tell lies, right? Approximately, I am 44kg so now, I feel that I am perhaps 45 or 46 kg. But it read 44.5kg.
Again, entahlah.

I am broke, handphoneless and suffocated.

Broke, cuz my mother does not give me any allowance and I dare not ask for it.
Handphoneless, cuz my SonyE phone just went dead, damaged, broken. Okay, so I am not that handphoneless but the hp just isnt working.
Well, good lah. Bill tak semahal dulu, I hope.
Suffocated, cuz I have to stick with Mas no matter what.

But I am still grateful to get to eat three meals a day (although nowadays I rarely eat one).

Oh Well. A great life I have. Thank You, Allah. =)

See ya again, insya Allah, peeps.