Verse 1:
Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that, baby you set the trend
Yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there, you said you love me
What's that about?

Verse 2:
You're moving too fast, I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet, baby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
Love will find a way...

CHORUS:
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry


It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

Verse 3:
Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow, you keep pushing me
You're pushing me away
Pushing me away...

CHORUS

BRIDGE:
oooo, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
na, na, na, na, na, na
oooo, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
na, na, na, na, na, na, na

Don't say you love me
You don't even know me baby...

Baby don't say love me, baby
Give me some time...

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Salaam. How I wish that particular individual could read this entry. And yes, I dedicate this song to him. The urge to tell the truth is so strong, but I do not have the guts to do so. I have to tell him fast. Sigh.

If only you are here to read this. Let me live. I have a life and so do you.Get on with life. Keep on moving. Do not wait for others, do not wait for me. Everyone has a goal in life. Go for yours. Please.

Do not expect me to love you when I do not even know you..

I am bored. Yes, I am. Here I am, staring at the screen with my fingers dancing on the keyboard, my arms resting on my Physics exercise book, not knowing what to do. This is like my fourth post of the day. And do accept my apologies if I am boring you to death. sheesh. I do not mean to be a muderer, pardon me.

You are the normal school girl. You're not completely a prep but it's not like you're a loner either. You get pretty good grades and you have decent looks. You're probably friends with some of the popular people but not all of them. You might even have normal problems at home like everyone does. But this doesn't mean your boring, your unique in your own way you just haven't shown it yet!


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Heh, funny. ~.^

People see you as a lovable person. Everybody likes you! You are kind to everybody, except the ones you bring other people down. You love animals and nature. But sometimes you get stuck in your own world a little too much. You are not very glamorous, but people like you just the way you are! You have a beautiful smile that melts the hearts of people around you.



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Me? Lovable? Yeah, sure. Haha. And I 'have a beautiful smile that melts the hearts of people around' me? Oh my. That is so wrong. Instead, I have a smile which disgusts people around me. Lol. Oh well. ^.^

Love is like a butterfly.

The more you catch it,
the more it eludes you.

So let it fly,
for it will come to you
when the least you expect it.

Nice isn't it? Quotes are part of my life. I mean, I adore them. They are merely made up of alphabets and letters but they sure have a great impact on me. Be it in English, Malay or in Arabic. I am sure to remember them.Only if I understand the meanings! Duh! Lol.

Another favourable quote of mine; Kejarlah cita-cita sebelum mengejar cinta.
Yep. You've said it. UNIC the movie. Honestly, I am having dilemma. For that is the main reason I am posting a new entry on my blog. heh. Somehow expressing my reflections is a way to bring myself to serenity. But I do know my limits while expressing online, especially. meh.

you are the eye of mystery. You always have questions on your mind and you always want them answered. People probly ignore you every time you ask them something...and you want to know why that everyone does this. Sometimes you wish you wouldnt ask so many questiones and that you could be soemone else but look on the bright side no one else is ever going to be like you. You are uniqe and different and thats probably why people are a little hesitate around you.Dare to be different its not the greatest thing to be like everyone else. Ask all the questions in the world before you know it you will have the answers, you will know more things. Being different is a gift.Honor it.


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Cool. That is something meaningful, I tell you. Why of course! The result is specifically accurate. Yup. I have to agree on this one. I sure am one peculiar kid. That makes me different. I don't know in which field do I differ from others but is being different really is a gift I ought to honour? I am not certain about that one.

Salamun'alaikum~ Leil Sa'id? Sa'id jiddan. That pic above was taken at the airport earlier when my sisters fetched me there. Boy, was I grateful to land safely in Singapore plus, glad to see my sisters. They waved at me like mad as soon as we MSPians got out of the arrival hall. Not forgetting taking shots of me pulling out my luggages. Hmph. Typical camwhores. *rolls eyes*

If I were to tell you about the trip to Medan, I think I will take 2 nights typing all the events which had taken place. I have yet to do my Physics homework and revise my studies before school starts. I really am exhausted now so till then, Ilalliqa'.

Salamun 'alaik.

Am on the verge of throwing up. AGAIN. I suppose my family members are unaware of LARIUM; the sickly medication, the jabs, the horrible side effects and everything. I assume all the above are unknown to them. Or are they simply ignoring the tough time I'm going through after consuming these "helpful" pills?

I am constantly having headaches, every now and then. Going to the washroom is like a must every single hour. Losing my balance and feeling virtual. And yet, I still do my daily chores and never whine and cry to them[my family] abt it. Well, I recall telling my mum I had a headache but I was just telling. NOT complaining. And yeah, it is that time of the month. So mood swings are normal. AND I can be VERY temperamental, easily irritated.

Yeah, cursings and yellings at me are normal. Esp by my sisters and parents. Name-callings can be heard too in the house. But why is it always me? I'm always the "prey". Getting nagged at, scolded for silly mistakes. My sisters? Yeah, always at work, surfing the net, usually not at home.
For some reasons, I know I'm unwanted.

I don't feel like having a blog. Someone surely is out there, trying to pull me down and would TAG at my tagboard, posting stuff which are sweet enough to piss me off. And in actual fact, I have not even heard of their existence.

Hey. Suddenly I just feel like posting a picture here. Don't ask me why cuz I've got no answer to tht.

I know what you're thinking. "Why does the girl in the picture look so melancholic?"
Hah. Well, because she really is feeling that way right now.

Sheesh. I'm such a pessimistic. Does it bug you, that I'm a worrywart and all? haha. To make the matter worse, I'm listening to Demi Cinta Suci. That song sure has a GREAT impact on me. Heh. When the song was released in late 2003, I was kinda hooked to it. And a horrible incident happened beyond my control. So yeah, that's the memorable tale beneath the melodious song. hehe.

To be honest, I'm feeling so low. Although there is a 'hehe' above. Hmmm..what do I do when I'm in this kinda situation? Oh yes. Recite surah Al-Mulk. You know what? It bugs me a lot when I think abt humans. I mean, come to think of it, when we are ecstatic and nothing seems to be a problem, we seem to forget Him and think that we are so great. But when the troubles come knocking at our door, we feel isolated and futile. And where do we run to? To Him, to Allah, of course.

Sometimes I think I'm such an ungrateful person. Selfish, is more like it. When problems struck, we get all panicky and frightened. Even worse, forgetting that Allah is always there, guiding us. Is this the way a real mu'min should behave? I do not understand humans, at times. Eventhough I'm considered one. I'm confused. AGAIN. hmm..

Life is full of beautiful things. But to gain the pleasure of life, you have to work for it. Yeah. I know. Perhaps that is what I'm doing. Maybe that is my goal; to make life beautiful by striving hard to achieve it.

Who are you ?? Really??? (Beautiful anime pictures, mostly for us girls)
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Cool! I love art! Well, not that kind of art. Just love the art of writing and poetry. ^_^

One peculiar kid coming through....

Peace to be upon y'all. I'm kinda puzzled by those stares I keep receiving from people whenever I walk past them. Is anything wrong with my appearance? Like duhh.. I know I'm not that pretty at all but I'm sure my face is not that distorted enough to invite such curious glances..

Hmm..I've always thought that it's rude to stare. And I do not like staring at people just as much as I hate them staring at me. Insecured me, you might say. And yeah, I have to agree. That's what most teenagers feel at this stage. I've done enough research on my assignment, which was on teenagers, that most youths feel insecured and all.

Hmm.. I've never thought that the troublesome assignment would do any good to me. heh. Well, now I'm very grateful to have conducted all the surveys and interviews on youngsters. Well, I'm one of them so whatever thing I've found out abt these teenagers, reflects back to me. Nice~ Praises to Him. =)

I was just wondering abt my future. I've always wanted to achieve my dreams and goals.. Be a filial daughter and everything. Everytime someone asks me what my ambition is, the word 'TEACHER' would pop out from my mouth. And now, I aspire to be a geologist. Why, you ask me? Cuz I love Geography so much, i suppose. And that's the additional subject I will be taking for my O's. The first reason I chose Geog was because tht's my interest and the other was cuz I'm very weak in Maths and perhaps, I could 'cover up' my "ugly" grades by scoring for my Geo..

Do wish me luck for my O's, yeah. I have not started revising yet. there are SO MUCH work to do! Even during the holidays. Haiz.

Now I'm stuck. I have to think of ways teaching lil kids English. I have to do their lesson plan. GOD, I sound like a Childhood Educator. Wait, isn't that what my sister is? She's a childcare tchr and her sister is gonna be one soon, in Medan. Right. Sheesh. I sound like a master of disguise. Hah.

Oh well. I've said more than I should. AGAIN. What do you expect? I like expressing myself. But I'm pretty sure that others don't since I've been always bugged whenever I have an online journal or smthg.

Right. I'm blabbering craps again. Shucks. Till then, see you after these messages. *rolls eyes* ok. i know.lame. -_-"

Rebellious. Somehow I do not wish to be rebellious. But people arnd me are ASKING me to be. So here I am, being rebellious. Not listening to a word my folks are saying and what the whatever my sister is nagging.

What a tough time of life I'm going through. Esp being a teen. Sheesh. I hate this kinda situation when you get all stressed up and confused AND there's no one to lend a listening ear. what the whatever.

Heh. Sometimes crappiness DOES bring joy. Am chatting with my lunatic cousin online. Hah. Lame but fun. That's good for me now. Haiz. What a family I have. Shucks.

Bleargh. I hate Friendster.

Mulan. The brave warrior girl. Or should I say, " Ping. The brave warrior lad " ?

I've always adored that movie. True, it has a great plot AND nice soundtracks. I once jotted in my journal about the movie and how the song 'Reflection'..reflects back to me. And yeah, my English teacher read that entry and agreed with me. Well, she loves the song and the movie, all right. =)

And I'm glad she's swept off some lucky chap's feet and is on their honeymoon, I suppose.

I think I'll be able to write a whole long entry about that favourite movie of mine, but I guess I'll just stop babbling about it since I've said enough in my journal. Heh.

Now, what am I thinking about..? Oh yes, of course. MSP Journal Writing Workshop. On Monday, err.. 10th Dec 2005. heh. Sheesh. I'm unaware of the date nowadays. I should be counting the days to the Medan trip, right? No? I'm confused.

" When will my reflection show who I am inside..?" I love that song to bits. And Mulan. And Mushu.
And argh. Every single part of the movie, okay.

Yeah, I'm feeling like Mulan. Dishonour to the family? I do not know. Hmm.. Indeed, perhaps I really just want to prove I can do something right. For once. Yeah, to be frank, I did cry watching that movie. Heh. Sentimental me, true. I'm a girl, okay. Not PING or anyone else.

Right. I'm rambling on unimportant stuff again. Till then, leil sa'id.

Salaam.

I suppose the Oggix tagboard will not last at my blog. I'll 'tear' it down soon, when I feel the time is right. Anw, I know I won't be a good blogger and I assume many others out there know that. Right.
On the 17th, i'll no longer be in this greeny country of mine. Insya Allah. Pray for me. I really need that. Fi sabilillah. Amin, insya Allah. *sighs*

To Medan, for an important assignment, also for my schoolwork. Another presentation coming right up. Teaching orphans English, is the assignment. And adapting to the hard life there, is another.

Wish me luck.

Salamun'aleikum.

A trip to the library has always lighten up my day. Although I had a bad time in the school library for a very jaded and dull meeting, it's great though to meet up with my sister and mates. Nice meeting the librarian too, NOT.

Well, much to my anticipation and dismay, I could not borrow any more books unless i pay my library fine. Serves me right, you might say. Yes, I know. But I do not own a cash card and if i do, i bet the credit would be no more than 5 pathetic bucks. Sheesh. What a fate.

Thanks to Farahin, I got to borrow a Series of Unfortunate Events book. It's the fifth book. And also another book entittled When I was older. Note that 'was'. Funny, eh? Well, that's the exact reason the book caught my eye.

I suppose this will be the end of this entry. Ilalliqaa'.

You are not alot of fun, I fear. You tend to take
things too seriously. Try to lighten up a
little and laugh about things, act a little
crazy sometimes and just have fun. You'll be
happier, I promise. Just ask your craziest
friend for help. And here, take this happy
pill.


What kind of Psycho are you?
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no, really?

What the. I'm not finishing off this stupid sentence. I know I have a foul mouth. But i really hate swearing. I mean, who enjoys it anyway?

Fine. I have a foul mouth. I'm always sulky and moody. I look distress every single second. What else? oh yeah, one MAJOR point about me, I'm stupid. Is that fair enough to all of you out there who simply LOVE seeing me in this kind of state?

Sometimes I regret posting my thoughts and reflections on a blog. Cuz there is ALWAYS someone out there who will pull me down, call me a loser, or merely ask me to buzz off.

I don't know who the freaking whatever they are. All I know is that everything i post here on my blog is about ME. AND if i were to call someone stupid or ugly, that 'someone' should be ME. Not anyone else.

Please, I do not have the whatever time to diss people around me, okay. I'd rather talk or perhaps badmouth my self, than any other whatever people.

I may or may not have enemies. But i don't give whatever about them. what's the use? I'm going to get high blood pressure sooner or later cuz of being mad unreasonably.

At times, ugly thoughts flood my head, whether I have a friend or not. Things seem to change occasionally. what the whatever.

People looking down on me, picking on me have been part and parcel of my life. I'm so USED to it. Instead of consoling me, people just DEMORALIZE me more, whenever I run to them for advice.

Whatever them. I'd prefer living in a world of my own rather than living in a whatever place where injustice is king.


Really, I am SICK and TIRED of ANIMOSITY.

p/s: if anyone of u twats out there think i'm a loser, i think u should just stop bloghopping to my blog. I hate unresonable bloghoppers like you.

Your...a fighter


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Yes, of course I am a fighter. I bet all Mu'mins are. I know I just can't sit down, waiting for some kinght to save me or whatsoever. I myself am a knight. yeah, a knight in a shining armour. but also a damsel in distress. Haha. [Ron and Hermoine].

Take alBusyra for example. I'd prefer doing all the work rather than asking or BEGGING others for help. but i know for sure that shouldn't be the way. Others do not know how grateful I am to have such great members esp k.Hazami and her sister.

Perhaps I'm a lazy twat, esp a pudding head, who doesn't do her chores right. But at least I DO know that i've done my part and NOT showing it off to people. I've never tell people that I detest backstabbers or hypocrites or whatsoever. That would just be so plain stupid. WHO in this world, LOVES such people? Do you get my drift? I MAY or MAY NOT be a hypocrite but my principle is; simply do my work quietly, calmly, without any disruptions and finish them off in a proper manner.
Or in other words, NOT being a SHOW OFF.

The Furqan camp, well, I should wish the committee GOOD LUCK. All ur effort, I hope are paid off.
Apologies, from me if I've been a FOOL all this while, 'NOT KNOWING ANYTHING ABOUT THE CAMP' but rest assured, I've known ENOUGH, thank you.

I'll keep praying for alBusyra and MWTI. Ma'at taufiq Wan Najah.

Your crush doesn't like you because...you don't
stand out enough. do something that would get
his etention and that your wouldnt regret.
something that you would be proud of doing


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Mak ai... hang ni biar benar??

New skin,no?

Hey. I'm tired, thinking about al-busyra and Medan trip. I'm worn out. I have not eaten my lunch yet, you know that? I've been typing for two [or maybe more] hours. The PCH trip, that is. Next will be the Rumah Tumpangan Warga Emas Petapis. Sheesh. In Malay. Right. I need a break.




How about a Kitkat? I need that, too.