Salaam.

How does it feel like to be overwhelmed by Halaawatul Iman ?
I would want to know..would want to feel the tenderness of it... sigh.

It hurts a lot when you cannot do what you want to do so badly.. when everyone is against you..against your decision, not supporting you at all..

I envy those, mostly my friends, who get to go to MKS twice a week.. but hmm..my parents do not allow me to do so.. perhaps I am not good enough..not pious enough.... I don't know..

It is like a blunt knife, piercing into your heart, and you feel the pain..it gets more and more painful everytime... when people look down on you..when people distrust you.... when people accuse you for no definite reason..and there is no one to console you..not even your close friends...not even your teddy bear (?!)....

Then the only One whom we can turn to is Him, of course. For sure, He is the All Hearing and All-Knowing... because He is Always There for us......

btw I feel like buying the book La Takhaf La Tahzan.
It seems interesting..Atiqah a.k.a homorectus was right..haha..

Till then, fi ri'aayatiLLah..